Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Friday, June 25, 2010

planes, trains, and automobiles






well more like buses, trains, and ferries! it took us about about 30 hours of travel but finally reached an island in thailand called koh samui. it was bittersweet leaving life impact because while we were so exhausted and ready for a little husband and wife time, there was still so much to be doing... not to mention the kids wouldn't let go of us when we were trying to leave! it helped to know that we have plans to be back there in september.
so here we are... living it up on an island and spending $12 a night to stay in a bungalow less than 100 feet from being literally in the ocean. it's amazing! what a great little break to refuel ourselves before we head off to indonesia to team up with another organization for a month or so.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

pyramid

perception




we saw another level of poor today as we crossed the border into burma or myanmar if you want to be politically correct i guess. myanmar used to be one of the richest countries in the world and was flourishing according to my understanding. then complete corruption happened. the whole country is now run by the corrupt army. there is no middle class. EVERYONE is poor... extremely poor. it is so bad that the burmese people try to flee and cross the river into thailand (this is the second picture) and stay in refugee camps and villages that have been set up here in thailand. however, the conditions of these are horrific. these refugees have it beyond rough here in thailand yet this is what they choose rather than being in burma. just last night we were told about how the burmese army will shoot into these refugee camps from helicopters to kill them. they try to get them back to burma to plow fields to prepare them for mining the rubies and then they kill them. they view their own people as disposable. the army has so much control that when we went we were only allowed to stay until 5pm because they don't want foreigners there. in fact, as you are walking across the bridge 99% of the time someone will come up to you in normal clothes and try to be real friendly and find out about you and why you are going into burma. these are spies that get paid about $3 a week by the army. compare that to the $5 a month salary a school teacher makes there.
also, just a crazy food for thought. we checked out some of the buddhists temples and discovered where all the money is! there were huge containers filled with money at the feet of each idol. meanwhile the country is starving. the fist picture is an example of this.
so many of the people that life impact is now responsible for come from burma. they are extremely friendly people... even while we went through the town people would shout "hello" to us and smile. yet they are so oppressed. it is all they have ever known. the country has been like this for about 60 years now. let's all remember to pray for burma.

Friday, June 18, 2010

for all you golfers (carolyn) and all you wanna be golfers (larry and rich) :)



my husband swears that I can't multitask... i think this proves him wrong. here i am practicing my golf swing AND mowing the lawn all at the same time!

Benjamin's heart buddy



this is our little buddy david. he was an orphan but now has parents of his very own and a rather large family. :) david has a heart condition and has had multiple surgeries already with more to be done. he went without any oxygen to his brain and i'm not sure if they know fully yet the results from that. he is the happiest little boy ever. in the video i am saying "suwadee krup" which is the way the men say hello in thailand. usually one says this while placing their hands in a prayer position and either bowing their head, or raising their hands up like as high as their nose. david does his own little version... watch carefully, it's quick!! :) he also has his own version of 'raspberries'. he's one special little dude.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

emergency shelter






the emergency shelter is one of the projects of life impact... it is a safe home for single mothers to come. the women usually have been through something very traumatic and have found themselves with a baby and no where to go and no means of making money. all the women live here (this building is just like most buildings here where there is a business downstairs and the family lives upstairs) and raise their babies together while they learn how to sew. one of the burmese staff at the children's home knows how to sew very well and she teaches the women. they have been making handbags and we are in the process of finding out the best way to sell them to help fund the shelter. this whole project just started a few weeks before we got here and there are 8 women and babies all ready.
one of the needs they had for the shelter was a small stereo for the women to listen to music while sewing. they also needed a new sewing machine. one of you met that need and the women were so incredibly thankful. in fact, the sewing teacher said after we told her she would be getting a sewing machine, "i so happy, i so happy. i no sleep tonight."

Monday, June 14, 2010

for those looking to give...

for those of you who have been asking how to go about donating, you can do it a few different ways. on the life impact international website it walks you through it if you want. the two easiest ways would be to send money through paypal or send a check to an address in thousand oaks, ca (this is where their office in the states is). here is the link. just click this :)
also, you can specify if you want to buy a particular need on the list and they will use your money specifically for that. also, if you poke around on that website and find the needs list, ignore it. it is outdated... just refer to the one that is here on this blog.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

lady boy massage?

hey there! kristine here writing from a local coffee shop that is very similar to starbucks. have my hazelnut "frap" and listening to the Norah Jones they have playing. totally in my element and loving every minute. this place is the one spot that feels like america... it's surreal. matt is getting a half hour massage on his back... well trying to. we have tried twice before to get a massage on just his back but have yet to succeed! lol we try to explain, they shake their heads and say yes, yes, yes, and then start massaging his feet!! it's hilarious. so we had a third attempt yesterday which was probably one of the funniest moments we have had here in thailand. we walk in to the massage place and ask if we can have a massage just on his back and how much it would be. two ladies walk over to us and one answers us in a very deep masculine voice!! matty did so good keeping a straight face, but i'm sure mine told all. it was like i was in shock and couldn't move. matt was still trying to figure out if the lady was going to be the one giving the massage or if the 'lady boy' was going to do it.(a lady boy is a common site here and is a transvestite) well it didn't take long and when the man lady came over and put 'her' hand on matt's back he was like, "i'm outta here!" i was dying. i knew what he was thinking and we were out of there so fast. while cracking up i asked him, "What, you didn't want a massage?" he was like "HECK no!" amazingly his back didn't even hurt anymore...as a matter of fact, he said it had never felt better! LOL :)

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

most recent needs

hey guys... a lot of people have been asking about how they can help and be a part of this organization that we have teamed up with here in thailand (life impact international). so below you will find their most recent needs list that they have. hopefully this will help those of you that were asking about it to see where the are needs. also, i just want to reassure anyone who is considering giving that this organization is beyond legit and changing lives everyday... literally.

Baby’s Home-7 babies:
Baby Safe Home Play area and mat flooring- $800
Rent for the month-$156
1month supply of wipes- $82
1month supply of diapers-$180
1month supply of formula-$300
1 month’s salary for a care giver (mom)-$125

Emergency Shelter- 4 single at-risk mothers, 1 family
Rent for the month- $218
Play area and mat flooring for the children- $700
Sewing Machine for vocational program/emergency shelter (At-risk woman and young girls)- $150-$325
2 water coolers (for the land and emergency shelter)-$100eachx2= $200
Bicycle- $125

Land-
Chainsaw- $320
Bamboo & Wire for temporary secure fence- $200
Start up repair costs- $3,000

Safe home- 22children
Rent for 1 month- $250
1 month’s salary for a house mother- $125

Cyclone Nargis Orphanage (Burma)- 49 children
Budget for 1 month- $1,500

University Scholarship for poor village students:
Tuition for 6 months- $250, $320, $650 (3 students)

Monday, June 7, 2010

a brilliant idea!

matt here - kristine and i were laughing about how we catch ourselves trying to speak the foreign language we know with the thai and burmese people here. so when we are trying to communicate with them kristine tends to want to speak in spanish because it is foreign to her yet she knows it and i want to use sign language because it is foreign yet i know it. however, this would get us no where with these people! all that to say, we have decided that everyone in the world needs to know sign language! every language has a word for say "ball," yet there would only be one sign for ball no matter what language you "speak." it's brilliant! everyone in the world could communicate so easily! just know your native language and then sign language and you will be communication with everyone. not to mention, i could tell the guys at the land that a i need a tool and not have to search the whole 23 acres for it myself! hahahah

any given day...

kristine here - alot of people have been asking us, "what do you guys do on a daily basis?" it's a good question. there really is no answer because it literally changes day to day. For example, one day we were all at the land and the men were working when we got a call that a mother of two children already with Life Impact had given birth that morning and didn't want her baby. so some of us went yet again to the same Burmese clinic where we got baby long life and were going to see what the situation was. We had just arrived when we got another phone call saying that one of the burmese girls that lives at the children's home but works at the women's shelter teaching them how to sew, got picked up by police and is in jail. so half of us went to the police station to try and get her out. this of course isn't every day, but often at any given moment on any given day, things happen and when they do, they happen fast and sometimes all at once. this is where God's grace and strength come in and all you can do is pray and watch Him work.
updates are: the mom who doesn't want her baby has been a little manipulative. meaning she has called Life Impact there saying she doesn't want her baby, but when they got there, she said she now wants to see her other two daughters. sidenote is she has another daughter that's two. so story goes like this. she was with a man, got pregnant, there was not enough food for them so she started breastfeeding her two daughters and the man got angry she was using "his" baby's milk to feed her other two children so would beat the two little girls. that's why Life Impact has them. Now she has another baby with this man, and he's out of the picture. he's gone to Bangkok and word on the street is that when they leave to go there, they don't come back. So now this mom wants her two little girls to take care of the other two children so she can go "work." A lot of factors play into this situation. first you have mom's history, which probably is a pretty messed up childhood herself and then you have the fact that they are starving and in survival and it's just like, where do you even begin? and how do you help this lady the most? and think of her kids...they are at so much risk. IF they survive past the age of 3, then they have a lifetime of starving, working, raising their younger siblings, stealing until they are old enough and then will either be sold for money, or used as a sex slave to feed their family. it angers me. I have to remind myself that anger will do nothing. compassion and love are the only answers. we can't fix all of their lives here on earth, but we can give them jesus, a gift so great, and they can know that one day, there will be no more pain, no hunger, no evil, no sorrow, no survival... none of that. Jesus can heal them and love them and he is all they need.
the other update about Po Po, that's the girl that was arrested basically cause she is Burmese and beautiful. as we drove there, the driver stopped suddenly and pointed to the ground and there was one of Po Po's shoes all torn up and broken. i felt my heart just tighten. i thought, "no way, it can happen just like that? one random day the police decide to be mean so they take her and can do anything?" yup. that's the way it works for the Burmese. they have no rights. they can't walk in the street alone, they can't ride in a car or on a bike alone, or they will be picked up, thrown in jail, and then deported back to Burma. and this is the life that they choose to have...makes you wonder about the awful things going on in Burma. she sat in the jail for about 2 hours waiting for us and our biggest fear was to get there as fast as we could cause the longer we took the more likely it would be that some police officer or some guy in jail would rape her. I was praying so hard. and again so very angry. if we had gotten there and found out that she had been touched, i was about to kick some serious police butt.(most of them are shorter than me anyways) we got there and she had the biggest smile on her face when she saw us. she told us that she was okay, and no one had touched her. i can't even write this without tearing up. she said, "i no scared, jesus with me. i pray. i no scared." talk about faith. we found out that to get anyone out of prison is about 8000 baht. that's about 240 bucks. after talking a very long time with them, they let her go for free. as we were walking out, one of the police that had picked her up said, "see i have good heart" and pulled out 1000 baht to give her and said, "go buy a new pair of shoes." just disgusting. we were so proud of Po Po cause she wouldn't take it!! the girl has some dignity and won't play into their control games. the other police said he didn't want money, just her phone number, and it's a good thing he said that in Thai (Po Po only knows some Thai). Po Po told us later that as soon as she got put in, there was a man waiting outside that offered to pay her "bail" if she would sleep with him. she said, "i so angry and shouted NO!" but just kept saying how angry she was at him. she's a very strong girl for being about 4ft and 80 lbs. she's smart too. can sew anything, knows english, burmese and thai, and goes to a computer class to learn more. i absolutely love her. the moment we stepped outside of the police station when it was just us, i saw her take a big sigh, and she just held on to Lana (one of the girls) and just said thank you thank you thank you. then she said, "i sorry to waste your time..." and again my heart broke. it was so unbelievable. someone who had gone through all of this, is still thinking about others and their time more than herself. i get cranky if i haven't eaten in six hours cause there is so much to do, and here she is concerned about wasting our time. a very good lesson for me. and quite the experience. I don't know the last time you've been thrown into jail for being cute and american, but maybe next time, when we get so worked up over little things, we can at least be grateful that we don't have to worry about that happening on any given day.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

squatty potty




this is the new squatty potty that i (matt) installed out at the land. it is the pink thing in the corner and these are the toilets here in thailand. use your imagination... it's called a "squatty potty." they have a couple buildings at the land as of right now out there and the last week or so we have been working to get those buildings livable so there are people out there at all times. unfortunately some of the brass fittings for the irrigation system on the land have been stolen so they need people living out there for security. we also installed lights on the property and continue to work on the perimeter fence. we are hoping to finish the gate tomorrow!
i have adopted the role of head foreman out at the land which is quite hilarious! first because i don't know anything about construction and second because my fellow workers don't speak my language! it's quite an experience trying to figure things out and then somehow relay it to the workers... but i am mastering the art of charades.
the "real" foreman for the whole construction of the land came out this week and will be moving here with his family in the fall. they are from california and have four kids under 6. we really bonded and he is an amazing guy!

pink is the new black for harleys



exhibit A... the whitey mobile. she's a bute.
this is a morning that we documented the kids with their new school uniforms and backpacks that were donated. you can hear in the background the "morning announcements" that go off every morning at 6am.
exhibit B... kristine. isn't she adorable? :)

to the least of these...





hi everyone! so sorry it's been too long since our last update. it's been crazy busy. i don't really even know where to begin. I guess the biggest news is that i was able to go get some great footage of the muslim slums and also skyblue...sounds like a fancy restaurant right? yeah, it's a dump. probably one of the most shocking scenes i've ever seen in my life. as you can see from the last two pics the people there have actually built their homes on top of the trash and live there so they can be the first to go through it and gather the recycling, food etc. out of it. the sad thing is that they don't do that themselves but make their children do it for them. seeing this dump was heavy for me. to think that the children live there, and this was their home just took my breath away. the smell alone was awful enough. i've never seen, touched or played with kids that were so dirty. one kid i could see his bones prominently in his chest and no exaggeration probably 25-30 flies on him all at once. it's hard to explain the scene and i can't wait to show you more pictures. it was an amazing experience...very heavy. matt hasn't seen it yet, so we will be back. and this time i will be prepared with clothes, food, water and maybe a toy. as we were leaving we literally went through our car and gave them everything we could. scrounged up enough water bottles for each of them to have, and they were estatic. i mean like jumping up and down with the biggest smiles. like we just told them they were going to disneyland. all over a waterbottle. it just baffles me.
the first two pics are of the muslim slum. the lliving conditions here are not much better. multiple people, sometimes even families live in not much bigger than 10x10 space. they have to pay to be there, and are overlooked by the muslims. I could feel the oppression just walking through there. the children were as darling as ever as they always are. broke my heart.

long life update



so long life went to chiang mai for surgery but it turns out the doctors wanted to wait to do the surgery... he is set for june 25th. he is now back here with his caretaker and getting used to having people touch him and hold him and talk to him. he is adjusting really well! please pray for him as you think of it.